Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Life & Death

Life and death... one a coming and one a going. One filled with joy and the other with sadness (and in some cases peace and joy as well). I got a taste of both last night.

We had an absolutely beautiful delivery last night. We welcomed the most gorgeous little girl into the world. You could see right through to her soul and I'll say, her spirit was HUGE. And then we found out that another mother will be coming in to our birth center today. But it's unlikely she'll be feeling the same emotions. You see, her baby has a condition which is incompatible with life. Her baby will come into the world today... and will likely also leave this world today. As a parent, I just can't wrap my head around this. I understand that you just "do what you have to do", but I can't imagine the depth of it. I think about losing my babies and a big wall comes up because the emotion is just too much to bear.

I'm back as the nursery nurse tonight. I'll probably get a chance to see this baby... perhaps I'll even be at the delivery if the induction takes longer than usual. I would be honored to be in the presence of such an angel. These are the experiences that make me take a step back and see all that I have, all that I am grateful for, and how rich my life is.

So hug your babies tightly today and express your love to them. There are no guarantees in life.

1 comment:

  1. this post made me get all teary eyed. I agree with you. A wall comes up for me also. It is just too overwhelming to even think about.